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Monday, December 25, 2006

God's Gift

Frequently, the only time I have to myself is when I am rocking my daughter, Molly, to sleep. The day is usually filled with things that must be done, so when I take the time to pray over her, although I’ve chatted with God all day long, our long conversations come at this time at night.
Tonight, Christmas night, is no different. It is the first time of the holiday, save for a quick communion while I tried to keep my kids quiet, that I’ve had to reflect on this awesome gift we were given.
It is a story no human would ever think to tell. It goes like this.
Once upon a time, before there was even time, there was a God made up of three. God the father, and his son, and his spirit. God’s son was with him before time. Through God’s son, all things were made, and he helped God make everything in the world. Including humans. (That’s us). It didn’t take long before we began mucking things up. Although God gives us everything we need, it doesn’t matter the time, place or event, we take Satan’s bait almost every time. We are suckers for his sweet talk. We both men and women, all humans, buy into his lies. And his tricks have cost us our very lives. God made it where his tricks could be cleansed through an animal sacrifice. Through blood. But, before too long, the sins were so many that there weren’t enough animals or blood to cleanse us. We needed a godly sacrifice. The catch? Our God, his son and the spirit couldn’t be sacrificed. They were spirits: immortal, intangible, and almost beyond our understanding. And, without this sacrifice, humans were completely doomed. (This is hard for many people to accept: That we cannot save ourselves. Just think of karma and all of the world’s religions that say you can save yourself. Don’t believe it. It’s a lie. One of the many Satan tells.) So, somehow, I am not sure if it is God’s idea or his son’s, but God figures out a way to actually save us from this awful mess. He doesn’t tell anyone. Maybe just his son. He probably whispers his plan to Jesus in a place so secret, no other being can hear. He can’t risk Satan finding out. The plan is that Jesus would come into the earth as a human, and leave his spirit form, his all knowing place in heaven, where everything is perfect to come to earth and look through the myopic eyes of man. He does this by becoming a baby, and being born through as innocent of a girl as God can find. She is the best available, and yet no one has noticed her, save her betrothed, Joseph. And, of course, because God can see into the hearts of men, God has noticed her kindness, her compassion, her sweet and tender heart. He trusts her to care for his son. And, so, Jesus is born in a manager. Mary and Joseph can’t find a room, so he is born in a barn.

So, the sweet baby in the barn, born to a poor woman and her carpenter husband, is our salvation. From the God who made the ocean tides, the moon, who positioned the earth so it wouldn’t spin right off its axis has come up with a plan like this. He trusts his ‘only begotten son’ to a pauper’s wife? Implausible. Unbelievable. Shocking. Scandalous. I love it! I believe it. It is a crazy plan, for lack of a better word, a hail mary that he knows is going to work, because hidden in the belly of a sweet girl, is the infant who is going to save the world. The sacrifice, the blood, the beatings, the healings, the miracles…all that comes later. But, on Christmas, everyone just focuses on the miracle of God in flesh, A king who rejects heavenly treasures to embrace a hay-filled manager, and the care of a young girl. Heaven is about Christmas. About the peaceful moment when God, newly born, was held and loved and cared for by a human. A vulnerable, sweet crying newborn who will save us all. The details, the horror, and the sacrifice that redeemed us all is gut wrenching. But, as you read this tonight, just picture sweet baby Jesus in his mother’s arms, and quietly say a prayer of thanksgiving that God was willing, after all we had mucked up, to trust one of us with his son. Be thankful that God was willing to send such an extravagant gift; and that that gift was so willing to participate.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

The Polar Express

Jack is wild about the movie, the Polar Express. Last year, his nanna bought it for him, and we watch it all year long. He believes in the story! He believes in the bells. It is wonderful. So this year, I bought the book, and he opened it tonight. He loved it. The story came with a bell, which Mike and I mysteriously couldn't hear. He ran through the cluttered house ringing the bell, screaming the polar express, the polar express, the bell. I can hear it! He even shared it with Molly. It was fun, and priceless to open a gift early (my family tradition) I love it!
Molly loved her playdough, and Mike and she are playing with it now. I hope you guys have a great Christmas Eve and Christmas Day! Mike and I already exchanged gifts; i got him a Pat Green cd and he got me 13 moons, by Charles Frazier. Merry Christmas, friends!

Monday, December 18, 2006

Holiday Catchup...Ba Humbug


Here are some pictures from the past few weeks. Oh My Gosh, it has been so busy here! I finished my paper and took it to school, we went to Holiday in the park (SO FUN!), decorated our tree, got our Christmas cards ready...I know you all know the drill. Seriously, the holidays are grueling. But I know it will be worth it on Christmas Day as we are with my family. The picture of Mike and the kids is at Holiday in the Park. It was a blast. It was cold, and perfect weather to celebrate Christmas...Now, though, 78 degrees! That is a Miami Christmas. The bottom pic is the one we sent out for our holiday
cards. HOpe you are all doing well and not too stessed out. Here is a secret: I hadn't bought a single present (except for Jack and Molly) until SATURDAY! Now you know why I am stressed!


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Monday, December 04, 2006

Pictures with Santa


I am aware that Molly has no pic with santa. This is not a accidental deletion. She screamed her sweet head off at Santa, and so I wasn't able to get a photo of her with St. Nick. I wonder if they pay the mall Santa's in pints or fifths?
Seriously, though, I love the picture of Jack with Santa. He is telling Santa he'd like the Polar Express for Christmas. I love that sly grin on his face. We went with our cousins Ava and Ian, and that made the experience so wonderful. Jackson later told me, Ava looked so pretty in her dress! AT one point, Jack and Ava and Molly and Ian were dancing while Cathie and I sang Rudolf to kill time. IT was pretty sweet.
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Mary

She was just a girl.
She was just a girl walking.
She was just a pregnant girl walking.

She was...pregnant...before the wedding.
We can count to nine...it didn't add up.

She heard a voice.
She heard a voice from God.
She heard a voice from God saying you are blessed among women.

Her fiancee didn't believe at first.
Then he too heard a voice .

Do you believe in...
God's only son
The virgin birth
The ministry
The opposition
The miracles
The sinless life
The redemption through innocent blood
The ascension
The spirit?

I do! Emphatically. I do.
I have heard a voice too.

Schizophrenic?
I am not.
The voice is always there
With suggestions of goodness and promises of heaven.

Though I am just a girl walking
Who sometimes stumbles,
More often than ever I believe.

I believe because I hear the voice
And I see the fruits of Him in my life:
Patience
Love
Caring
Consideration.

I know that usually, I would possess none of these traits.

But, slowly--for the ground needs tilling,
I am transforming into a thriving garden of faithfulness.
Because I believe in the girl walking, her reluctant groom and her firstborn son.

There will never be proof positive except in me, in my life.
That is why my transformation is imperative.
He demands it.
Maybe you, too, can hear the voice.
My suggestion: listen with an open heart.
Begin by hearing the footsteps of a pregnant girl.

Friday, December 01, 2006

Please Pray About This

Normally, I do not think I lean too much to the dark side of life. But, I have to admit that women's issue and children's issues are very close to my heart. Anyone who knows me well knows that when it comes to gender issues, and issues of children (education, free-lunches and health care for children), there I consider myself at least a moderate, and possibly a liberal. (I realize that is a bad word in Texas, especially in C of C circles), but if you have the time to click on this link, read this article about child rape in African Nations, and how gender inequality often perpetuates injustice for the victims. (One experts believes the number one reason why these crimes go unpunished is gender inequality. Interesting. And Sad. Especially given all our savior has done to prove how worthy and loved women and children are.) And, pray for those children in Africa who have to suffer and feel they will never have nor deserve justice. I know, believe in deep in my heart and with all my heart, that God has heard their cries and will deliver justice. Please pray that his kingdom will reign on this issue. Pray that God will bring the victims peace. Their sorrow has affected me deeply tonight.
http://www.nytimes.com/2006/12/01/world/africa/01madagascar.html?_r=1&oref=slogin